Happy National Coffee Day

Dear Coffee,

You’re nectar of the Gods for us mere mortals everywhere. I thank you for your magical abilities to make my mornings better. I shouldn’t really even say just mornings… Mornings, afternoons, after dinner, or to pull an all nighter. Your dark brown liquid is there and mighty tasty I might add.

You’ve been there for me always. Whenever I needed you you’re just a short brew away. The earthy aroma that your beans give off is one of the best smells in the whole wide world.


Your caffeine has powered me through some of the hardest moments when I’ve only slept for an hour. My favorite part of the day is my first cup of the day. Outside, on my porch, with the birds chirping, and a gentle breeze. I cherish this time we have together. You’re always there for me whenever I need you. So thank you!

There’s so many different ways to enjoy you as well. Hot, cold, frozen, blended, espresso, French pressed, Turkish, and the list goes on and on. You are loved world wide. You’re always my go to when I’m meeting someone new.

You can turn an entire day around too! Days I go without you I feel like a part of me is missing. Sorry to the tea lovers out there, but you’ll always come first in my book!

Here’s to coffee and all the people who love you. May you enjoy it however which way you like it. Black, cream and sugar, milk, a latte, whatever!



My Body, My Mind, My Temple.

Today I made a decision. I’m taking back my life, my mental health, and my body.

I generally live a healthy life, or at lest I try to. However, the last few years while in school I let some things slip. I stopped running and exercising, I didn’t exactly eat the healthiest (Mountain Dew and Pizza. . .), and I barely slept. This wasn’t by choice though. It was how I decided to survive school. I realized soon after freshman year that eating pizza and drinking Mountain Dew everyday isn’t exactly sustainable. I slowly made the conscious switch to eat more fruits and vegetables. Even if it was just in a smoothie. However, the sleep and exercise thing remained lacking.

It’s not that I didn’t want to (I mean I didn’t. . .) It was mostly because I was exhausted from running on 4 or 5 hours of sleep consistently and let’s be honest here, partying to blow off steam on the weekends. I remained pretty active though as my job/concentration requires me to constantly be moving. I frequently do yoga and stretching as stress relief and away to relax.

Now that I’m home though I realized that I have such an open schedule and the way I used to live my life I’ve out grown. Which isn’t a bad thing because it was obviously not the healthiest.

Today I went for a run during the hottest part of the day. (In hindsight that wasn’t my brightest moment. .) but for the first time in about 4 years. When I was in High School I used to run all the time as a way to clear my head relieve some stress.

Well, I’m defiantly not 18 anymore or anywhere near in shape as I was when I was 18. My neighborhood has a trail that’s by a lake. It’s a beautiful view and really peaceful. I go out there to think sometimes. I prefer running on this trail because the ground is softer and doesn’t hurt my shins or knees as much from the impact. (I have shin splints and family history of terrible knees that I was lucky enough inherit.)

I found an awesome playlist on Spotify. It’s called Energizing Classics under their workout section. I must say it was exactly what I needed. When I want to stop “Don’t Stop Believing” by Journey came on and gave me the extra boost I needed. Sure, it’s a little cliché, but I defiantly felt like Rocky when running to “Eye of the Tiger”.

I’ve realized I’ve been in a bit of slump lately. With life not really going how I wanted to and my Dad passing on top of it. I knew it was time for me to make a change. I think the best way to do it is to start small. This is something I can do.

Honestly, I enjoyed it. I like the feeling of dripping with sweat and focusing to gain my breath back after running super hard. I like the feeling of air inflating my lungs and exhaling. With my heart beating so fast I could hear it in my ears. It was a great reminder that I’m alive and I’m here. I like the feeling of pushing myself just a little further and that being the only thing on mind. I may have only lasted short stents and then needed to walk, but I was moving. Plus, I have goals to work towards and reach. Which is always a great feeling.

I’m not running to lose weight or tone up. Although, those things I wouldn’t hate. I’m running for me. To regain some control in my life and to feel good. Runners high is a real think. I felt it after my run today! I was just in a great mood. Exercising releases endorphins which make you feel good and it’s no joke. I feel amazing!

Along with running I found a yoga and meditation studio close to home. They have a beginners meditation class that I’m looking forwarded to attending. I used to mediate all the time and everyday, but I fell out of it and I think going to a guided meditation will help me spark it again. I’m not religious, but this is how I used to be spiritual and lately I could use some spiritual healing.

It’s a long process to feeling better and healing. I know and understand this. I think I’m going to give this a shot.

Here’s to saying hello to new healthy habits and good bye to the old.

Dating As a Millennial

Dating as a 20 something is ridiculous!

I don’t know if it’s because I’m an old soul or what it is, but being 22 in 2017 kind of sucks. Or it’s just me.

I like old-time eras and customs. I like the idea of courtship and dating, but for some reason a large part of my generation doesn’t understand that.

I’m part of the Netflix and Chill era. When I really want to be part of the era with group dances and cute dates. Someone take me on a picnic or on an adventure without the automatic assumption then we’re going to have sex after. . . Like when did we as a society get so comfortable with idea of super casual sex? (I mean you do you! I don’t judge.)

I mean don’t get me wrong…I’m not exactly a prude. I’ve had my fair shares of Netflix and Chill hookups. Some times they’re needed. But I kinda of feel like there’s a time and place for that. Like in college with a friend whose chill. At least in my experience.

What’s really weird is I don’t really want a serious relationship. I just got out of one 3 months ago. And yes 3 months should be enough time to get over it, but it hasn’t. I still care about him very much. I’m also in a weird place emotionally right now.

Honestly,  I have no idea where I’m going. I’ve kind of been flying by seat of my pants lately. . I’ve realized that tomorrow isn’t necessarily promised and I should be living each day to its fullest. I kind of feel like it’s unfair to drag someone into all of that. This being said I’m actually pretty lonely. Which comes the Tinder.

Yes, I admit to Tindering. (If that’s a verb?)

But I refuse to be just a Tinder fuck. Tinder fuck for those of you who don’t know are when you match with someone for the sole purpose of getting it on. Again, if that’s your main purpose then like good for you! But don’t get mad at me when that’s not mine…

I make it really clear when I get messaged and right away it’s a little raunchy that I’m not looking for something like that. Some dudes get mad to which I remove them. Others are like oh sure let try to be like a real person. Either way I originally downloaded the app because I was bored and drunk.

To be honest I only use it when I’m not sober. Using it I’ve realized that I’m really judgemental. For example if you don’t have a job or you’re not in school I swipe left. If you’re in a community college or a vocational school, chances are I’m swiping left. If you have nothing on your bio, I’m swiping left. If all your pictures are group shots and I have to guess who you are, I’m swiping left.

It’s weird I’m this judgmental because I’m pretty sure my bio says something like “Feed me tacos and tell me I’m beautiful.” That’s because I had a real bio with interests and was talking to people who didn’t really have the same interests as me they’re just good with the google. . .Anyway, I can’t really be too judgmental because I’m a fresh college graduate, who still lives at home with her parents, barley can drive her car, and is pretty much unemployed. So who am I to judge.

I’m not completely shiting on the app though. Like I said I started originally because I was bored and lonely. Through I’ve met some interesting people to say the least, but I’ve also met some special people as well.

Like the guy I’m currently dating. We’ve been talking since July and started going on dates the last week of August. Pretty much try to see each other at least once a week since. So for the last 5 weeks we’ve been hanging out and every time we do I have a good time.

Yesterday, we went and got lunch. We were sitting at our table going back and forth like we normally do and he was playing with my hands. I guess from an outsiders perspective we looked like a couple, because our waitress left us the sweetest note on the receipt. We then spent the afternoon swing in a hammock at the park looking at the lake and laughing. It was a great afternoon!


The thing is I really like this guy and enjoy spending time with him. As does he with me. But we’ve both decided for the time being to continue to get to know each other and  go on these cute little dates. I think it’s cool that he respects my space and understands that I could leave at any moment to go pursue my dreams. Reasons why he calls me a “flighty agressive hipster”. . .


I’m happy to finally be with someone that’s cool with taking things slow and seeing where they’ll go. My last relationship was great, but it felt very rushed. We both jumped into something. This is a nice pace.

I’m excited to see where this goes.

For me Tinder has worked to connect, find some new friends, and possibly a new relationship. I guess you have to know what you’re looking for and not be afraid to put yourself out there. But also don’t be afraid to stay true to who you are.

Some tips and over all advice like all internet dating apps and such use judgement and be safe. Never agree to meeting someone alone.  Make sure you tell someone where you’re going to be. Meet someone in a public space like a bar or coffeehouse. For me I only agreed to meet this guy after we’d been talking for a while and I was able to look him up to see if he’d ever been arrested. You’d be amazed what you can find in public records. Overall just be safe and use your instincts.


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